For Nora

Sometimes I feel like Nora.
When I stand in the middle of the kitchen with one hand on my slanted hip
waiting for espresso to perc on the stove
clamping my teeth around a sizable cut of parmesan.
When I discipline.

When I team up or contrive a plan with somebody my equal.
When I lay in an X on the grass, a chair.
When I curl in a ball in bed.

When I push someone on a swing.  When I swing.
When I know I’m not a social worker, but could be–
should be.
When I know who is who.

When I simply say okay even though I disagree.
When I voice my opinion based on experience
and education.
Sometimes I feel like Nora.

When I take a break.
When I say yes to a dulce.
When I’m silent.

Sometimes I feel like Nora.
Sometimes I feel like you.

Rainy Traveling, Running

Pit, pat, drip, drap.
Stuck drops, dips in
bosom.  Cold surprises.

Lost sounds:
hum-drumming, feet coming,
all-dumbing down.
Just: breathing, own-drum-
beating, heart speaking.
Rainy traveling, running.

Cold water-drinking, invigorating vision.

Shadow Poem

I lost my shadow.
Where did it go?
Into the trees hanging below
me on the sidewalk
path.
I will meet him in the sunshine
soon.

To the Not Impossible Him

How shall I know, unless I go
To Cairo and Cathay,
Whether or not this blessed spot
Is blest in every way?

Now it may be, the flower for me
Is this beneath my nose;
How shall I tell, unless I smell
The Carthaginian rose?

The fabric of my faithful love
No power shall dim or ravel
Whilst I stay here, –but oh, my dear
If I should ever travel!

Edna St. Vincent Millay
Collected Lyrics

*I’m sensing a personal theme here.  Staying, going, signing contracts, settling down, seeing, experiencing, itching, scracthing.  Are free spirits always this way?

Where does the sinking feeling come from?

Where does the sinking feeling come from?
How can it pull and push at the same time?
How does it suck inward
so far that it lugs itself inside out and back
again just so
tight
with you stuck to its sides?
How does it crush from the shoulders
down and in, but leave the head
alone enough to know just what is going on–
and still send the head debauchedly spinning around its gravity?
How is its silence louder than any music?
Where does the sinking feeling come from?
How was it made so potent?
That place is surely a battlefield of sorcery.

Little to No

There is little to no way
that I am that off.
Then again, I have been tricked
A time or two.
I could be totally unwired
And not even realize it.
Crap.

Morning

Morning,
fresh and bright,
innocent of how
I might
whittle away your light,
don’t leave me.

The Concert by Edna St. Vincent Millay

The Concert

No, I will go alone.
I will come back when it’s over.
Yes, of course I love you.
No, it will not be long.
Why may you not come with me?–
You are too much my lover.
You would put yourself between me and song.

If I go alone,
Quiet and suavely clothed.
My body will die in its chair,
And over my head a flame,
A mind that is twice my own,
Will mark with icy mirth
The wise advance and retreat
Of armies without a country,
Storming a nameless gate,
Hurling terrible javelins down
From the shouting walls of a singing town
Where no women wait!
Armies clean of love and hate,
Marching lines of pitiless sound
Climbing hills to the sun and hurling
Golden spears to the ground!
Up the lines a silver runner
Bearing a banner whereon is scored
The milk and steel of a bloodless wound
Healed at length by the sword!

You and I have nothing to do with music.
We may not make of music a filigree frame,
Within which you and I,
Tenderly glad we came,
Sit smiling, hand in hand.

Come now, be content.
I will come back to you, I swear I will;
And you will know me still.
I shall be only a little taller
Than when I went.

-Edna St. Vincent Millay
Undeniably, music is a force that pursues the soul and catches it in order to grow the soul inch by taller inch of true being.

Heat

It’s true what they say about heat.  “Heat changes you.”  They say that, right?

As the temperature rises, I find it more and more difficult to maintain my steadfastness.  I’m letting my words fly and my imagination has completely run away with my sensibility.  I’ve lost any semblance of control.

I’m sticky and I feel stuck and I’m not liking it.

I’m not sure how to get back to the cool days of ease and coze,

when words were the only warmth I gave.  Now my words just add to the blaze.

It was 100 degrees Fahrenheit today.

The heat is getting to me.

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