Embarrassing Myself

Blog!  When I think of myself as a twenty something single woman with a blog, I sometimes get a little concerned for myself.  Many a young blogette spill their most embarrassing moments without reserve.  Boy, does that freak me out!

However, being that I am at the moment catching up on a silly little guilty pleasure of mine, I was reminded of a silly little embarrassing moment from a weekend or so ago.

I mean, goodness, it’s summertime.  It’s time to let go a little bit, right?

With all that build up, I should say it’s really not all that embarrassing.  The thing was that I slipped.  I revealed a little part of me that’s so super 20-something, suburban, apparently with no life, girl.  I know not to say these sorts of things, but this time, I didn’t hear my inner mom yelling at me, “Girl, think before you speak!”

Of course, we all say silly little things that we just wish we hadn’t said.  Things that make us want to throw our heads back and laugh it off with a, “Just kidding!  That’s totally not true.”  But we don’t say that because it would be a lie.  Whatever it was we did say, is completely a part of us and completely true.  We have really no choice but to let them go and surrender to the fact that we will either be further accepted or not.

Basically this cute, young teacher, totally new to me, was talking about how he used to rap in college and how his students now always badger him to rap in class.  Of course, my next question was, “Do you have a stellar rapper name?”  (Because I always use the word stellar when discussing rap.  It’s obviously another good choice of mine.)  He responded, “Well, what do you think about The Bachelor?” 

I threw both my hands in the air and with abandon exclaimed, “I love The Bachelor!“

I received a sideways look while he said, “Not the TV show.  I mean, most rappers don’t have bachelor’s degrees, but I do have a bachelor’s degree.  I’m also a bachelor.”

“Of course.  Right.  That’s great.”  And on the inside, I rolled my eyes and said, “I am painfully aware of the fact that you are a bachelor.  I’m embarrassed that that was my reaction to the word bachelor.  It just triggered me.  I swear I’m not that obsessed; I just get such a kick out of that show.  And I really do learn things.  It reminds me to be open.  But let’s not talk about me.  Or Brad.  Or Emily.  Or Ashley H.  Or the fact that Ashely S. really should have been The Bachelorette this season.  I mean, she was really crying when Brad let her go.  Poor thing.  I can totally relate.”